'orrible yet optimistic .

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I don't mind if you despise this blog,yes it's great if you enjoy it, but rather selfishly, it's for me.It's oddly comforting knowing that my little opinion is floating around in cybersapce and will always be here.

Thursday, 30 June 2011

saying goodbye.

Today I said goodbye to my twin sister for 5 weeks. She's going to Greece for a week and I'm going Interrailing for 4 weeks, this will be the longest we've ever been apart from birth. I'm a bit apprehensive about spending so much time away from her, who will tell me when I really do look like shit or when I was out of line. It will be good practice for Uni I suppose but it still sucks at the same time. Bar that tiny disadvantage Interrail is set to be the best 4 weeks of my life. With tours of Anne Franks house, Bone Museums,Boat parties and music festivals how could I not enjoy it? I'll be sure to blog blog blog and blog until I blog myself to death about it.

Sunday, 26 June 2011

Seasons change,it will never be the same.

Lyrics from the sensational Bonobo never cease to sum my exact feelings up.

 Although there are so many exciting things to come, travelling, summer job,End of the Road festival and the biggie ; Uni, I can't help but feel as if I'm going to loose so much. I went out with a group of my friends on Friday to celebrate the end of exams, honestly one of the best nights out I've ever had, despite maybe passing out on the toilet. It made me so happy to see so many familiar faces but at the same time it made me so sad, the realisation that I won't probably have that opportunity to be with so many people in the same place on the same night again. With some friends doing 6 months out in Canada (bloody jealous) and others parents moving away from Walsall, its going to be so complicated to just agree to get everyone together at the same time.

This summer is going to be utterly dedicated to my friends, squeezing every last bit of joy out of them before we're forced to depart.

Wednesday, 22 June 2011


I do not know how I have survived to tell the spine tingling tale but, I have finished my Biology A-level. I had one exam last Monday and one today.I've also done my English Literature exam and have my English Lnaguage exam on Friday.

I have never felt the sheer joy  that ripping my revision notes off my wall ( okay slowly peeling them of as to rip the paint away with the blu-tac, it's the sentiment that matters anyway) brought to me. I have never seen my recycling bin brimming with so much highlighted paper. If all has gone to plan and the gruling hours spent locked away with nothing but fruit tea to keep me sane actually pay of, I should be swapping the streets of Walsall for the shore of Bournemouth. Where better to cure a continual hangover from freshers week (and the rest) than the golden sands of the Southern shore.

I have no idea how I have faired but all will be revealed on August 18th. eeeeep. Except I won't be getting mine until the 23rd probably because I got myself a summer job! My sister and I both landed one of the most rewarding and fun jobs an 18 year old could possibly have over the summer. We're going to be Playscheme workers at the local deaf centre. Basically we get paid (very well) to run around pretending to be kids again, including free trips to the likes of Drayton Manor and Legoland. Excited is not the word!

More pressing issues, where do I purchase the cheapest bottle of vodka? Jokes aside, the more pressing issue is my month travelling around Europe. By the end of April I had raised enough money to get me to Amsterdam and that's about it but through selling my clothes on facebook, to asking for sponsors from school the figure slowly began to decrease and became more managable. Eventually all I required of my parents was emergency money ( blatently just going to be spent on cheap German beer). So my backpack ( which is literally the size of me) is packed, and has been for the past month, I've had exams okay, the only thing that kept me going was putting a new thing in it everyday. Wow I really am sad. My sister and boyfriend brought me a Fisheye camera which I am dying to fill with photos of the trip. 10 days til I go, I'm slightly apprehensive and nervous but excited beyond belief more than anything.

Wish me luck. I hope I live to share the stories, my god there will be so many.